I am suffering. My disease is called "wantitallitis", some of the symptoms include wrinkles, grey hair, dark circles under the eyes, insomnia, overstress and utter exhaustion. It is sometimes also referred to as ‘Wonder Woman Syndrome.’ Side effects: at times emotions and stress can build up so high that the result is akin to that of a volcano erupting. On the other side of the coin is the blank stare and loss of cognition due to the endless ‘to-do’ lists playing over and over in your mind. It is also not uncommon to fall into modes of immobility which often leads to another issue of ‘snackalotitis’ which goes hand in hand with the huge problem of Timewastering by Mindless Internet Surfing. The ultimate long term effects of "wantitallitis" is usually ‘havenoneofititis.’ And that is where I am headed.
I have the artist dena, the parent dena, the businesswoman dena, the daughter dena and the sister dena and the friend dena. Nevermind the shuttle coach, the chef, the doctor…and the one who gets called on the most: the household supervisor dena. Each of these roles have a voice and a few need to be heard louder right now and a few need to go on a sabbatical. A few have no choice but to stay. I want it all but I can’t keep killing myself trying to have it all or I will have none of it in the end. At least, not in the way I want to have it.