9. Nine. N-I-N-E. Halfway to 18. Halfway to college. Halfway to adulthood.
how? when? why? and where was I when my guy turned nine? I remember when he was a baby in my arms and I said the words outloud for the first time "I am somebody’s mother." In a blink of an eye I was saying "I can’t believe I am the mother of a two-year old!" And suddenly nine. I don’t know how to be the mother of a nine-year-old. Nine. It’s been two months and I have to keep saying it. I have to keep hoping I can do it. Can I get him to 18 in one piece? I am in uncharted territories. I was never a nine-year old boy. I don’t even remember the first thing about being a nine-year old girl. Why am I so scared? All of a sudden I am so unsure. I’ve made it this far…what will come next?
Aidan. He is a thinker, a dreamer, a joker, a scientist, an artist, a big brother, a role model, a bookworm, a romeo, an intellect. He has a very soft sweet fragile heart that fills my heart everytime I watch him go about his life…and my heart tears just a wee bit everytime I let him go. He is preparing for adulthood, yet clinging onto boyhood. A boy on the verge, on the cusp, torn between two worlds. And he is all mine…for a little while longer.
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